Conquer the wall

With the reversal of Roe v. Wade, I thought I would tell this story of a woman in an unknown country who has had to live with the pain of two rapes and their consequent abortions.

The media tell women that abortion will solve all their problems. It is only afterward that women feel the depth of the consequences. It is only afterward that they realize that they have to live with the grief, shame, guilt and heartache of abortion every day. And every day wondering what if. No one told them about that.

The death of a child is real, and nothing can change that. But God is a forgiving God. The brick wall can be conquered.

I assisted a friend in a prayer session with a woman well into her 70’s. I won’t go into many details.

She come to us for prayer because regardless of all the changes she had made toward her happiness, she still felt a weight that kept her from feeling the joy that should come from those things.

As a general practice, with only 90 minutes to get to the root of issues, we do as little digging as possible. We rely on the leading of the Holy Spirit to take us straight to the root of the concern and ask pertinent questions without asking too many.

In response to our Holy Spirit-led questioning, she revealed that, as a teenaged girl, she had been raped twice over a two-year period and consequently, had two abortions.

The men who had attacked her had been friends of her father and neither parent believed her causing her to feel alone and unprotected by her father.

Logically, these feelings toward her own father now projected onto God the Father. This made her feel God the Father abandoned her, making Him untrustworthy. In her mind she saw that a brick wall between her and God. After some questions and prayer, she saw that the wall had been demolished, the bricks laying at her feet.

Nevertheless, part of her still felt afraid to move forward. Suddenly, she noticed that she had stepped over the rubble toward Jesus.

I felt I should ask her how old she was.

“Oh!” She exclaimed, “I’m 16 years old!”  Up to that point, she hadn’t realized that the person who had stepped over the fallen bricks was her 16-year-old self. She went on to tell us that, as the 16-year-old, she could go to Jesus. She felt able to trust Him and through Him, the Father.

By the end of the prayer time, she was excited and happy, laughing and saying she felt lighter. She clapped and raised her hands in praise to God for the breakthrough.

This kind of breakthrough is possible for those of us with any type of trauma we have suffered. There is nothing that God cannot heal.

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